Indeed. I think I'll start small, as I always should have.

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I need some time, in all honesty. Time to rethink all of what I've wanted to do.

I don't really know who I am to the world yet, or what I particularly want.
This includes what I want to do in and for the world, and also what I want from the world itself.
Right now, it's almost like there's nothing that I want.

But I do have a few things that I do want.

First of which being getting out of this stupid town. I plan on moving to Phoenix, AZ in a few months.
More gay community there, and hopefully I'll meet a few furries there, too. :3 It's also got my kind of weather, so I know that I'll be getting out more often.

Second is that I want to start participating here a bit more, as far as portal submissions/reviews, and maybe somewhere down the line actually fulfilling one of the childhood dreams that I've never bothered to pursue: making my own games.

I've got a few other dreams and desires that run in my mind, but I don't yet know if I will be able to acheive them yet.

All I have to do is strive to reach for anything that I want. -- It's that sandbox-y way that we can live that confounds me. It's that very freedom of choice that has left me stuck for over 12 years, unable to decide on and plan for my future.

Is it too late? Closing in on 30 years old; is it too late to begin to live?

I am afraid of the answer to that question being "yes". I'm scared to death of that answer being "yes". I admit it, I myself DO feel like it's too late, but not everyone in the world will believe the same things that I do, so some of you might have a different way of seeing it.

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I'm scared. I'm scared of never having a future.